The Man With No Heart.

After a recent phone conversation with my girlfriend, I was told that I was simply another heartless guy. I found this very, very... I don't even know how to put it, I think I was just simply taken aback by this very comment made upon my personality, how all the things that I've done in the past, everything that I'm doing, and even the things I am about to do in life... All heartless? Surely I deserve a more fitting description than this? Surprised, shocked... Just these two factors are enough in keeping me up at this time of the night, so I can write this blog, so I can write my mind... I still cannot get over the fact that I have just been called a heartless person my very own girlfriend... What have I done to deserve this fate of mine? All because I made a simple mistake and was careless in reading two simple emails... I guess I was destined never to be a person with a heart- not on purpose, but by accident...

I was planning on going to badminton tomorrow morning with De and Robert and the rest of the CF gang... But right now, I don't feel like I can function properly until I have managed to convince myself that I'm not the guy with a heart that I thought I was... Obviously something in me is missing, obviously something she wants does not exist in me? I would say I need some guidance but all I think I need now is some me-time... Some time put away just for myself to use, just so I can think through these recent events and reconfigure my own way of life... If only it was as easy as changing some options in a menu...

I just can't sleep right now. I feel so... Empty? Mentally tired? Down and depressed? Emotionally unstable? Or maybe its all of these... Life was good when it was what I thought it was, obviously it isn't what I think it's like... It's nothing like it, I'm just another heartless guy.

~BRio the 69 @ Home