Gimme 10 Minutes... It's All I Need.

After the recent events which have unfolded between now and my last blog entry, I have managed to tire myself mentally with such emotional issues and I nearly lost sight of my single most prized possession... I really nearly did, but I managed to get a hold of myself, gathered my thoughts and I have continued to carry on with life as it is... Weird isn't it... I'm using the title of my own novella in my own life... Must be some sort of sign? A sign of big things to come? I wonder...

Having had time to think about my previous wrongs and issues, I came upon a conclusion, an idea and a solution. The conclusion part was that whenever I get tangled up in something, the first reaction that I have would be to get mad. Now why do I do that? I don't know. I think that's probably something I need to change, I'm just too hot-headed sometimes... I know it too, but that's why it's hard to change, because it's just become a part of me? Idea... I came up with an idea which really is the solution to be honest, but it's to let myself have a ten minute me-time whenever I get mad... I know this is a bit anti-social but for some reason I can get my head around matters within ten minutes. I don't know how, it's just nature. I guess ten minutes isn't bad? As long as I get those ten minutes I tend to be fine, I just need to sit down calmly and just think it through, or maybe just forget about it for ten minutes.. It's all I need.

I was at work tonight and I was just thinking of something, and I thought, "yeah I really need to blog about that..." And believe it or not, I've forgotten what I wanted to blog about... Isn't it just great when shit like that happens? It's times like these where you want just a device which can kinda grab images from your mind in the past... A bit like how the Apple TimeMachine thing works, it's nifty and I wouldn't mind having one, but is it really necessary? If only I could plug myself into a hard drive and just upload all my thoughts and memories onto it? Now if only I could work out a way to do that and present it on Dragons' Den...

Ok that is really annoying. I can't remember what I wanted to blog about!! Grrr!

Nevermind, it probably wasn't very interesting or useful anyway. There's not a lot else I really have to say right now, but I don't want to leave this blog here because it's a bit of a loose end (well, it feels like it anyway). So maybe I could enlighten everyone with a bit of my day? Mmm, well not a lot has happened today, apart from work... Sometimes I wonder what I would actually do if I didn't have work to go to? If I had money, and didn't need to work... Where would I be? What would I be doing? I'm always wishing I didn't have to work, but then again everyone does that... But what would I be happy? I think I'd prefer myself in a busy schedule than mooching around doing nothing... It feels like I'm using my time productively, but I'm getting nowhere with either of my jobs... I just hope that university will be a new hope for me...?

~BRio @ Home