I don't know whether I've mentioned it before, but time is a valuable asset that we possess as humans and we have to make every minute, second of it count. Right now, I'm stuck in this grey area where I don't know whether I should be angry, or worried, or maybe even both at recent turn of events. Angry because so much time has been wasted, angry because she doesn't seem to be worried at the slightest of it all. Worried because I don't know whether she'll make it through first year or not, worried because if she fails again she might never come back again. Or both? I laugh at matters like these normally, I eat them for breakfast. But not this time, this time is different. Everything about this matter is just worrying and it's really getting to me because I really really do not want her to fail again, either in a resit or just totally not managing to organise a resit. If there's one wish I should make now, it's to wish that she would just grow up and be a little more mature for one moment. That is all... But maybe I'm wishing too much, I just don't see something as demanding as that happening anytime soon, it's just not going to work, she just doesn't want to mature. There's nothing I can do about this but sit and watch; I do my best to help her and urge her to grow up, but you know when some people just don't want to do something? They just don't listen, they just don't understand. Right now, she's probably mad at me because I'm acting more worried about the whole situation that she is, which isn't wrong because she's the one meant to be worried. Why the hell am I acting so uptight? It's because I care for her, she may not know it yet, but I do.
~BRio the 69 @ Sorrento Clubhouse
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