In. Love. ?

I can't believe I'm still awake at this time of the morning, and under such circumstances as well! I am tired from waking up at 6am this morning, playing badminton from 7 - 9am, then been driving around for a bit in HK and basically not slept since this morning. I'm surprised that I haven't collapsed yet from the exhaustion! But that's okay, I've been able to surpass my previous ability to withstand exhaustion, and I can last for quite long now without having to nap or anything which is good because I can use my time more efficiently.

Okay. I am just like, totally in love. I'm not saying that I wasn't before, but I just feel right now that she is the one for me. The one and only girl I will ever love, and it feels like nothing can change that opinion right now. I know it's quite silly to say such things, but it's true and I can assure you that my feelings are true and to be honest, my feelings on such issues are not normally wrong. I have gone through a lot with her so far, and I feel that we will go through a lot more together and all I hope for is that she feels the same about me...

±BRio the 69 @ HK

All We Need Is Time

As I said before, time is a valuable thing... I've got less than 2 weeks before I leave and I'm already feeling like I won't see my 老婆 for a long time... For now, she still doesn't know when she is going to come back to the UK but I think she wants to come back in October, after the mid-autumn festival at the start of October... I know it's selfish of me to think so, but I really want her to come back to me earlier... But seeing as she wants to stay with her family for longer then I suppose it's only the right thing to do to let her stay, even though I have little say in the matter anyway.

The past week has been really topsy turvy for me. I've experienced highs and lows of all sorts of magnitudes and I've also learnt a new sport called Extreme Nining which is a really really dedicated type of sport. But I'll let you's in on that at a later stage. But now, I'm feeling better again, but I wonder how long can it last? I don't want things between me and her to only last for a certain amount of time, I expect more to us than this. I expect us to be together for a very long time, for God knows how long, maybe years and if I'm lucky then a lifetime...? But it's too early to say that anything is set in stone, as time goes by people change and hearts turn, but maybe, just maybe, there's a chance that it'll last this time. Because I love her.

±BRio the 69 @ HK

Times of Frustration and Anxiety

There are some times in life where you just feel really frustrated about something or someone, and it just gets to you at such a magnitude that you think that the world is just going downhill. I'm in one of those moments right now.

I don't know whether I've mentioned it before, but time is a valuable asset that we possess as humans and we have to make every minute, second of it count. Right now, I'm stuck in this grey area where I don't know whether I should be angry, or worried, or maybe even both at recent turn of events. Angry because so much time has been wasted, angry because she doesn't seem to be worried at the slightest of it all. Worried because I don't know whether she'll make it through first year or not, worried because if she fails again she might never come back again. Or both? I laugh at matters like these normally, I eat them for breakfast. But not this time, this time is different. Everything about this matter is just worrying and it's really getting to me because I really really do not want her to fail again, either in a resit or just totally not managing to organise a resit. If there's one wish I should make now, it's to wish that she would just grow up and be a little more mature for one moment. That is all... But maybe I'm wishing too much, I just don't see something as demanding as that happening anytime soon, it's just not going to work, she just doesn't want to mature. There's nothing I can do about this but sit and watch; I do my best to help her and urge her to grow up, but you know when some people just don't want to do something? They just don't listen, they just don't understand. Right now, she's probably mad at me because I'm acting more worried about the whole situation that she is, which isn't wrong because she's the one meant to be worried. Why the hell am I acting so uptight? It's because I care for her, she may not know it yet, but I do.

~BRio the 69 @ Sorrento Clubhouse

@ HK

Oh and in a blink of an eye, here I am in HK! Not too appreciative of the heat, but still at least I can stand it to an extent. Not really been doing a lot since I've been back, but then again I have only been back for two days, and I've already managed to spend nearly 1000HKD. WTF.

Anyway, not really been doing a lot, been walking around a lot and that's about it. I met up with my girl eventually (and as you know I've missed her loads and loads) for two days in a row, which is good because I really wanted to see her... Right now, I've come back from having dessert with her and her sister who is a nice person all in all and I really don't mind her, despite the whole stereotypical girlfriend's sister thing. Whatever that is.

There's always been one perk staying in HK, and that's the fact that I get to watch Discovery Channel! It's mint, I learn so much from watching it though like. But yeah, I don't know what else to say. Apart from the fact that I saw a GP-03S Dendrobium HG Model at a scale of 1:144!!! It's 1880 HKD so I think I will have to consider for a little while before I buy it. Oh and the fact that its really big and I won't be able to carry it home. WTF.

-BRio the 69 @ Hotel with Free Wifi which I've managed to steal from someone.

I'm leaving todayyyyyy

Been a few days since I last blogged. That's down to the fact that I've been busy with doing the books for the shop and everything so I've been on a downer, so I haven't actually been able to find the time and motivation to write here. But yeah everything is kind of fine here right now and it's great because I'm leaving today! I'm leaving UK for HK! Yeah, I'm going to be going to HK for 3 weeks and it's going to be great because I'll have no work to do, nothing to worry about, and most of all, I can see my girl again! Well, for 3 weeks, which isn't really a lot when you've been waiting for this time for a long time... Just want to be with her as soon as possible!

Currently have a headache, and it's not very nice. Just want to sleep soon, but I don't think I can because I haven't exactly packed up yet, and yes I know I only have half a day to go before I leave but then again I like leaving things to the last minute, you know? It's been an interesting day, I can say that it hasn't been much productive but you can't really expect me to be productive, especially when I'm as lazy as I am... This headache is getting worse. I don't like it.

I went out for dinner with my mum and dad today, as a means of celebrating mum's birthday and we went out to Hanahana. Which was awesome. I love Hanahana. Then I went over to the flat and had a good chat with WTF and Figo, which was fun because we discussed so many things and just generally had a good laugh... I love times like these where we just sit and talk about things which we wouldn't normally because of other things like women in the way and such and such. So that was a nice little hour or so we had in private and it kinda felt bad because I wasn't going to get such an opportunity anymore to sit down with WTF and Figo to have a chat and stuff because Figo is leaving the UK for good, and WTF isn't entirely sure whether he is coming back or not... Well, he knows he wants to come back but he just isn't sure whether he is allowed or not... All these things are making me think, sometimes human relationships are fragile because there are so many things in life which are out there waiting to break the bonds down, wanting to disconnect us from each other... So I do think it's a good thing that the internet is in existence because we can now communicate with others so far apart...

But sometimes, even when communication can exist between two separated people, there are other things in place which can jeopardise their well founded relationship. This also makes me think, why do people like them exist, and why do they get together if they know that they will only fall apart when one leaves? This baffles me, but in the end I see that there can only be one explanation for this and it is LOVE. Only something of this magnitude can make us humans perform irrational operations and make us think the illogical. It is only natural of us to fall on our knees before the power of love, but the relationship on which we build on must be extended through other means sometimes in order to prevent it from deteriorating. This headache of mine is getting worse.

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Wednesday. Simply Because It Is.

Ah man, another day another night... Can't say I've got nothing to do, but I just don't feel up for it right now... I mean, with a whole 3 months' worth of accounting to copy up, who would? Certainly not I, for I am full of life and full of energy, but all of this is just dragging me down... So down...

I haven't really done a lot today, nothing productive and nothing un-productive... That's pretty bad like, I haven't even done my daily 3km run... This is real bad news for me, as my weight is unstable right now and it just seems like it wants to soar in the 80s zone again, but I can't let that happen! But I just have no energy anymore... My body is crying out for rest, crying out for someone to help make it better, but to no avail. This week's exercise-filled schedule doesn't seem to be keeping itself up, and I don't like the sound of that... Maybe I should do more tomorrow, well I mean I do badminton anyway on a Thursday night at the Medicals, and I love it, but I think I need more sports than that! I think I'll go swimming tomorrow morning as well... That's a good idea, I went today and it was okay so I think I will go again at the expense of my rapidly diminishing energy reserves. I'm sure I will cope tomorrow, I'll just have to boost my energy rate by having some high energy foods, even though that will prove to be very calorific!!! But I'm sure it will be fine as long as I do all the sports I'm meant to.

I'm getting pretty tired right now, and it's only half ten... This is never a good sign. Maybe I should have a nap till about three in the morning, then I can wake up and give my lil' girl a call to see how she's doing... Because I miss her. I don't know how many times I can say that until I get bored and sick of it, but I know that I'm nowhere near that point. I just won't get bored of expressing the fact that I miss my girl and I want to hold her in my arms right now... But it won't be soon before long that I'll see her and eventually end up in her embrace once more.

~BRio the 69 @ Home

I Am So Random

Ah I am so bored. For some reason I just can't find anything to do which will rid me of this boredom... I have somehow lost my ability to just go and do something, replaced now with an ability to sit and moan about how bored I am instead. This isn't exactly something I'd want to be doing right now, but to be honest there isn't anything interesting to be done at all, I've pretty much sorted Dynasty Warriors: Gundam 2 out already, so there really isn't much more to life than this I suppose. Well, I'm sure there more to life than this, but right now I can't see it and I definitely can't sense it either...

Well, how about a little bit of randomness? A little bit of randomness never hurt anybody, right? Already, I'm starting to lose memory of what I've been doing today... But once I start to try and think about it, I can gather bits of my memory and I can remember now... I played badminton from 2 till 4, then I played squash from 4 till 4:45... Why the squash courts are booked in sections of 45 minutes, I do not know why, it baffles much so, and if anyone knows why, please let me know. But yeah, I played badminton with SS, Karl, Steve and this other guy who must've been twins with Steve because they just... Looked the same. Wtf. But I didn't know his name, I wasn't given the chance to know it, we just played badminton. And they weren't very good. Well I wouldn't say there weren't very good, but they weren't amazing either, provided hardly any challenge at all to me so that's not a lot of help, but I suppose that's a bit of sport done today. Then the old badminton dude came, and we had a couple of games with him and to be honest I didn't like them at all! He used plastics and I really don't fancy them, and not to mention the fact that the plastic he used was fucked up didn't help... I was saying to Les that if we had been using feathers, he would've died a million years ago. Which wouldn't have been true literally, but would've been funny. Well not really because we wouldn't really know would we, if it was a millions years ago. Karl showed up unexpected low skills too, which was disappointing... I was looking forward to a good challenge, but in the end all I got was a leisurely two hours at Eldon Leisure... Not a good thing.

Squash was a different matter. Playing with Les in squash was pretty good, I'm kind of getting better now and I'm sure I'll end up beating him sometime soon! Squash really does get your heart going, so I guess it's pretty beneficial in general so hopefully I'll be doing more of that in the future and maybe even at university.

Talking of university, I've got a few things planned for this coming September like. I want to join the badminton club and make it into the university team, and actually play properly because I don't want to be like last year and not participate in any university sports. I might even try and make it into the squash as well, but I don't think I'll have that much time, especially studying law... Which is going to be hard. But then again I like a bit of a challenge... Hopefully this time round I'll actually complete the course unlike with Mechanical Engineering... And whilst I'm on about university, there was this plan which SS and I have come across and that's to rekindle the fire for the Northumbria Chinese Society seeing that a certain youknowwho has fucked it up and nothing's been heard of it... If SS and I can make it work, then I'm sure we'll get plenty of exposure for both the bakery and CGZ. If this goes to plan then it will be awesome, I mean, actually doing something useful for once! That's gotta be good.

So yeah, after my not-quite-so intensive sporting session, we (SS, Les and I) went to the good old Metro Centre for a walkabout to see what's new. Result? Nothing. Well, the fact that we were all skint doesn't help either. So it was more like a window shopping trip to see what stuff we could buy if we had the money. That's pretty depressing like.

Only a week to go! Only a week to go, then I'll be on a plane, on the way to HK! This is going to be awesome, I can't wait... But I don't like plane flights. I don't like the long queues at the airport. I don't like the long and impatient wait at the boarding gate. Everything surrounding the airport just annoys me, and I don't like it. But it shouldn't be too long before I get there, soaking in the humidity and heat of the HK air... So much to look forward to, the bustling population, the food, the atmosphere, the TV ads, the hotel... And las tbut not least... My lil' girl's been waiting for me for a long time... And I have been waiting to see her for a long time too... I just wish I could see her sooner! The 12 hours in the plane from London to HK is going to be the longest plane flight I'll ever have this time... I don't think a universe's supply of sudoku can take my mind off the wait to see her, that's how badly I miss her... I can somehow now experience the feeling that Small Brick will feel when Figo leaves... She has my sympathy in advance... So painful, but even so I think all will be well once I get there!

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Seven Days Is All I Have Left

Ah dear, another day gone, wasted. Well I wouldn't say it was wasted, at least I managed to get plenty of exercise done throughout the day, which is quite satisfying like. But even still, I wouldn't mind trying to fit just a little bit more exercise in my routine, so I think I'm going to have to raise the bar a bit for myself and push myself that bit harder...

Today at work, you wouldn't believe it, but there was this scene I saw whilst driving around- this chav kid in a phone box on the phone! Like, he wasn't very old, I'd say maybe about 14 or 15 and he was using the phone in the phone box?! I immediately thought, "this is the 21st century... I thought all kids had mobile phones?!" Obviously, I was mistaken and this scene has become the main thought of the night. That was quite funny though, just the thought that this kid was using a phone box... I mean, I'd expect someone like an old guy or something use it, but definitely not a kid, especially a chav kid! But then again, maybe he was picked on by some older chav kids and they stole his mobile, who knows?

So Monday is over, another seven days till the big day! I leave eventually next Tuesday so I'll be able to see my little girl at last! It's been nearly three weeks, and I'm already missing her to the ends of the world... She just means so much to me, I never realised it fully until she left for the summer... *sigh* I'm just a sentimental kinda guy, I hate to admit it but it's true and I think most people know. But yeah, just can't wait... My awfully long wait will over soon! But seven days left... Also means I have only seven days left to fulfill my aim of dieting/losing weight successfully! I don't think it has gone all too well, so this week is going to be my week of exercise, and I think it's started well, but I definitely need more work in there! Wish me luck readers...

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Weight Loss, Dieting... Just for...?!

Well, I've just done half an hour on the treadmill on a strenuous workout programme and I feel awesome, and tired. Just another hour until I have my next exercise session at Eldon Leisure with WTF, SS and hopefully Les playing badminton! I love badminton I do, it's just awesome but most of all I'm actually alright at it, compared to all the other sports I would like to do... But yes, this is a promising start to my exercise-filled week, despite managing to miss swimming this morning, but that's okay I think I will go tomorrow morning and swim for longer, just to make up for the times where I didn't go.

I think there has been slight difference to my body shape after all this exercise, but only marginal change, and I'm hoping to slash my weight down to about 75kg by the time I go to Hong Kong, because afterall that was my aim, but right now I have no idea how heavy I am so I better go check in a moment. To be honest, all this weight loss/dieting that I've been doing isn't really for anyone, it's actually for this polo shirt I bought at the Ferrari Store in Rome, where I vouched that I would lose weight in order to wear the shirt properly and not appear to be really fat. I think I may try it on tomorrow, if my weight loss hasn't made much difference to me in the shirt, then I will up the exercise rate and see how that goes... Wish me luck readers.

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Oh I'm not so sure about that...

Alright, I've come home from a long day at work and have been on the treadmill for a bit. But I still don't feel very fulfilled. I'm sure there is more to life than just work and working out, well keeping fit. I'm sure that out there there is some sort of destiny I'm meant to fulfill, but I just haven't found it yet...

Work was pretty bad like, wasn't busy at all so it wasn't really worth going to... But when it's run by your parents and they pay you to work, it doesn't seem that bad afterall. But I do get worried sometimes when it's quiet at the shop and I wonder about how we managed to get through the past fifteen years on that little street... We really do have a long history in Newcastle, but there is competition these days and they think of trying to bust their way into the market and try to gain their own portion of the market share, but no I don't think it's working because we seem to getting on fine, if only we had some more marketing power. I don't even know what I'm on about.

I decided to write this passage because I'm pretty bored right now, after doing my daily share of exercise I just feel like I need a good rest but I'm waiting to call on my girl... If only she picked up the phone, that is.

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I can't believe I've just woken up from a nap mid-blog. What the-?! I don't know, but at least I'm a bit more refreshed now, I think it's time for a little gaming time, just a bit of me-time you know? I think I really need one of those right now, there's just too much stuff for me to be doing these days that I don't really find the time for all that shit.

~BRio the 69 @ Home

More Paramore, Anyone?

Well it's been another hectic day at work at the takeaway but not quite so at the bakery... Right now, it's about twenty to three in the morning of Sunday but I'm still on here writing an update as to how life has been today... Am I obsessed? Or am I just crazy? I have no idea, but I have to say that at this very moment I am not actually that tired... I know that I need sleep soon, I know I am tired but for some reason I just don't really feel any of it.

Talking of work, it's been another night of constant Paramore-ing. This is becoming a problem. Yes, even my iPod Touch agrees because it likes to occasionally switch off and restart itself when I'm listening to it in the car. I don't think it likes Paramore. Well maybe it's more of the fact that it doesn't like playing Paramore's "Riot!" album on repeat for hours... Well, I find it fine! I don't see why my iPod should get annoyed before I do, afterall it is only an inanimate object which is incapable of thinking for itself (or so we think). So yes, this seems to be evolving from a Paramore-liking to more of a Paramore Addiction, if you know what I mean. I think I gotta give it a break sometime otherwise I'll end up listening to them too much that I will start to hate them.

Right now, in HK my girlfriend is about to embark on a day out on a boat with her mates, I wonder how she's going to cope- apparently she only knows two of the people there... But nevertheless I hope she has a great time, but at the same time I am also worried about her because I know how silly she is most of the time so I do hope she looks out for herself especially today! And believe it or not, I do feel a bit insecure because afterall as Billy Joel once sung, "When you love someone, you're always insecure~" but it's not that I mean, I don't think she'd cheat on me but you know that feeling when you don't know what your other half is up to, or where she is and who they're meeting etc etc. I just hope she doesn't do anything stupid on her day out :S

Back here at home, I have more serious problems to think about: Nando's. There's about (right now) nine days till I leave for HK, but WTFman isn't going to be here for most of this coming week so we won't be able to use the two free whole chicken cards that I have left. That is actually quite depressing. I don't want them to go to waste, well I mean they won't anyway, but I want to use them with SS and WTF so I think I'll have to go to drastic lengths to achieve this "want" that I have. Hopefully we could go on an afternoon or something, but if not it'll have to be Sunday. BUT SS is working on Sundays! What a bummer. Maybe I should've thought about this earlier. Hm.

Talking of Nando's, I'm not sure whether you's have been to the one at The Gate or not, but there is this bitch there, right? Her name is Linsey or some shit, and I really don't like her... Reason? Simple, rude attitude towards customers will always bring you bad luck and I assure you I have already filled in a comments and suggestions form indicating that she had been rude to me at the till and I made sure she found out about it. Hopefully she'll have some sort of change soon, otherwise I will continue to be dissatisfied and keep commenting until they fire her or something. Although that would be a bit harsh, but what can I do? I don't like people being rude to their customers, it's just wrong you know?

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Thoughts on Working

You know, I really appreciate the guys who came up with the idea of Pro-Plus because it really has been a life saver for me today at work. Without it, I don't think I would've survived through the night at working driving as a takeaway driver, it just gets so boring sometimes and you feel like you wanna just fall asleep! Then again, without it I would still have got through but I wouldn't have been working as efficiently as I was tonight. Sometimes, I really don't know what the other takeaway drivers think, you know? There were three of us tonight delivering but the other two claimed results far worse than I would have expected, in terms of number of deliveries carried out. I find this quite frustrating sometimes because they aren't working to their best potential but still get the same base wages- isn't this a bit unfair on me? I mean, I know what we earn at the end of the day is relative to how many deliveries we make each, but they can't just slack off and do a small amount of deliveries but still get the same guaranteed wages as me?! Nevertheless it brings me great satisfaction that I am still the fastest delivery guy at the takeaway and even if there are other drivers, I will still work at maximum efficiency because I love money!

Talking of working at night, the playlist in the car tonight consisted of: Paramore's album "Riot!" x 10+. I just couldn't be bothered to change the album at all, so it was just totally Paramore, playing the same songs over and over again. I think I should make a playlist for the car... Any suggestions?

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Interesting day I've had...

So yeah, I eventually got my UCAS official welcome letter today which is a relief because I thought it would never come :S Interestingly enough, I managed to receive a reply from my choice before I got my letter, which caused a bit of panic and confusion yersterday morning when I realised that my UCAS Track application had changed! Shortly before finding out that I couldn't login to Track because I didn't have my personal ID yet = =.

I went out to town today, I don't even know why I did. But I met some dude at Bob's and I remembered who he was eventually when we exchanged conversation about the old days in YGO. This conversation I had with him was somewhat nostalgic to me, because it's been a long time since I left the world of YGO and it really brought back some of my most memorable flashbacks to me today. Even now, occasionally I would think about going back there, back to the world of YGO, but no I cannot do that because there is just too much to think about when you're there, too many rules and new things that I just can't keep up with anymore. Therefore, I believe that I had made a logical decision when I left YGO, but now the memories are still with me.

Concerning my health situation, I still feel more or less guilty about my eating habits within the last couple of days coupled up with my erratic sleeping cycles. I've had a small amount of sleep within the last 3 days and my body is still under a lot of fatigue, especially after last night's badminton session at the Medicals. I guess I'll just have to sleep more over this weekend in order to pay back the energy loan which I used during badminton, which proved to work but the consequences are creeping onto me now: even more tiredness and a sense of weakness (physically) all round. I hope I'll manage to pull through this weekend without doing anything stupid at work or anything.

~BRio the 69 @ Home

Blog no.1 - The Continuation of a Legacy

Yeah yeah, alright alright, I know it's been a long time since I've last posted anything on the internet which is worth reading, but hey c'mon we all get downtimes right?

This may not be the most interesting of blogs that you'll read on my blog page, but trust me this is only the start of my comeback to the world of blogging... If you're reading this on blogspot, then you have truly read this here first.

Tell your friends and family, because briomir is back and this time he isn't going to hold anything back!

~BRio the 69 @ Home